The reason why..

That's it. I've had enough. For once I thought I could forget about you. Thinking that yes. Sure. all of these shit that people call lovie dovie feeling would be gone eventually. Well hey, guess what, it's still here. I didn't throw it away. I buried it in. Wrong! Of course. All these years, I told my friends to let it go. Buang jauh2. Don't ever keep it inside (that's for their case). Me? I just don't want them to go through what I've experienced. I didn't even tell my best buds that its aching inside, I seriously didn't know how to. And keep thinking it'll go away. Running life like nothing's happened. Now imma be open n tell you people, including "you" this is why I don't date another guy yet. My head is blank, ada pikiran juga isinya lo lagi lo lagi loo lagiii.. It's been over a year dan gw masih suka mikirin hal2 bego lucu yg dulu2. Guess it's because down there masih penuh ke isi sama lo doank. Regretting what I've done in the past. But I was terribly wrong. Now you're gone. And it has been the biggest regret in my life so far. Worse dari cinta monyet gw yg pertama obviously. Just great. Seumur hidup cuma ada 1 cwo yg bener2 nyita smua perhatian gw. Bener2 tragis. Done. There my story, relieved now its open to public. For those who likes to nanya2 knapa gw ga punya2 cwo or keep rejecting one guy to another. This is the answer.

Ps for him:
Knowing that you moved on with your life since ages ago and happy with your life now. It is a joy to watch. I'm really over you now. Though I still think you as a good friend n nothing else no hope none watsoever.

I'm slowly falling out of love with you..